Yet another mommy meltdown! Not a big surprise as I am under a huge amount of pressure with this project, but I hate when I give into it. I'm trying, one day at a time. Faith is of course adorable and fun as usual, but also learning to test the limits. There's a part of me that wants to bust out laughing when she shakes her head at me and throws her food on the floor, but then I know that the part of me that gets upset because that's not good behavior needs to win out. I'm trying to figure her out as she's trying to figure me out. In some ways, having a toddler is kind of like the newborn phase all over again as we are meeting each other in a whole new light. I'm trying to roll with it, but if you know me, you know that's not one of my specialties. We'll get there!
I'm making headway on this project but I can't wait for it to be done. I've been at this stinking kitchen table for like three days straight and I am fried. My dear mom forced me to get out for a little fresh air today because I was crying over nothing this morning. Okay we've established that I'm emotional at times, but even I know a mommy meltdown when I'm in the midst of it. When Faith gave me a hug and a kiss today saying "hi mama" as she does to everyone and everything these days, I couldn't help but smile. I got a hold of myself, gave myself a little kick in the ass, and got my head on straight. There will be days like this and I know that I'm not the first mom (or the last) to get a little overwhelmed at times. I'm a lucky girl and I know it, just need to kick myself in the ass (and have a wine night with mom) sometimes to make myself shape up!
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