Serial Worrier

So I am self admittedly a serial worrier. I know this, I recognize it as a character flaw, and I have talked about how I try to work on it time and time again. Yet here I sit consumed with worry and trying hard to just let things roll off. I have so much on my mind and as I think that I will be headed out on vacation a week from today, it's hard not to worry. I know that Faith will be in good hands with my dear mom, but I have so much anxiety about leaving her. I never want her to feel like I have abandoned her, and I know she probably won't think of that, but I can't help but let my mind wander there.

Then I think about all that I have to do before we leave, how I will get my current workload handled, and what I will do about the days I'll be gone once I need to play catch up. Yes, this is how my mind works which is probably why I have stomach problems and likely why I don't sleep well anymore. I've always been a worrier but it seems to get worse as I get older. I surprise myself sometimes with a bit of a laid back attitude towards parenting, and usually the worry is about the things that I truly can't change. So I'm working on it, but yes I am a SERIAL WORRIER!! Even my own mom thinks that I worry too much and wants me to get a handle on it so that it doesn't affect my health.

Hey what can I say except that I am a work in progress! I think that when you're working with the balancing act of being a good mother, keeping some sort of a career going particularly when it's on your own, and keeping the husband, mom, friends, and family happy---sometimes you're going to worry! I think that once I'm on that beach with a cocktail in hand hopefully all will be okay, sometimes it's the anxiety that makes it worse in your head than it really is. So here I sit trying not to let the worry get the best of me and continuing to have talks in my head telling myself that everything is always okay. I know that I'm truly blessed so I'll just keep working on the worrying thing...hopefully I can get a handle on it through time!